Hard knocks


Life sends plenty of hard knocks your way, and under ordinary circumstances, you get up, dust yourself off, and keep moving along.
But how do you handle life when it sends a sucker punch to your gut?
About three weeks ago my family and I were the unfortunate recipients of said sucker punch.
It was quick, sharp, unbearable and the lingering pain left us in total dismay. In fact, if I’m being completely honest I don’t think that we’re entirely over the shock.

Three weeks ago my mother was admitted to the hospital over an unfortunate bout of rectal bleeding. At first the docs were hopeful that it would be nothing more than hemorrhoids. But when test results and bloodwork came back, it all pointed to more testing including a colonoscopy. After additional testing was done they discovered a tumor around the rectum as well as a mass in a lymphnode. At which point they diagnosed her to be in stage three anal cancer.
However; with this particular kind of cancer, the survival rate in advanced stages are high. With hers its 70 to 80 percent, which is amazing. My family and I are so grateful for that, and it’s one thing that’s keeping all of us in positive spirits.

On the flip side of the coin she has to undergo 6 weeks of chemo and radiation therapy. Both five days a week, Monday through Friday.

What scares me, is that she has a weakened immune system and because of where they have to administer the radiation treatments, she’s at an increased risk of infection. Not to mention the number that the chemo treatments are going to be doing.
I’m just scared, nervous and over all freaked, because she’s got such a difficult 6 weeks coming up. And I’ve got to be positive for her, which I’ve been and will continue to be.

But at night when my mind won’t quit racing, is when the nerves and the worries set in.
With the, how are we going to get her through this?
Can we keep her from winding up in the hospital?
Will we be able to keep her hydrated?
And, will she get enough sleep?
In my heart, I know that we will be able to help her through it, and that she will get through this.
Its just difficult.
Right now I’ve got an online shopping cart full of supplies for the upcoming weeks, that I’ve been putting off purchasing; because then it feels real.
Not that the doctors appointments and the radiation tattoos haven’t already thrust us into the reality of it.
It’s just difficult and something that you hope no one, especially your mother would ever have to go through.

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Introduction


Hey all,

I hope your holidays were happy, and that you were able to spend the season with loved ones. Mine was a nice, I spent most of Christmas Eve cooking, and then spent Christmas Day with my family, enjoying holiday movies.

I wanted to squeeze in this post before the holidays, but never got around to it. I’m not sure what lead me to writing this post. What I can tell you is that this post began with me jotting down random lines, and then it transformed into… Well I suppose I could call this an introduction to my fictional universe.

 

Too tired to see straight.

Too tired to think straight.

Can’t even write great.

Fuck trying to freeze frame, and drop the pen at a satisfied place. Cause at this pace I’m in it for the chase. I can’t quit this race till I know happens, though I can’t even tell ya if the heroine escapes.

 Or if every vision is worth the headache, induced by the chase. In a world where every piece of information obtained, is a fight to keep humanity safe.

 Look, I started this book, with single idea that turned into a vision. With ten years’ worth of revisions, but I’m on a mission.

No lie, if I play my cards right these visionary ideas will connect, and lead you through a psychological mind fuck.

 Add a bit of political gain for flavor, and I can guarantee you’ll want to savor every word till you reach the end of that last page.

That last sentence, is still a distant daydream, I can’t even see it on the horizon.

 But that’s not important.

Right now, I’ve got bigger fish to fry, like my antagonist battle cry.

Hold up.

 Now, where am I?

 Oh yeah, my head’s up in the sky. Cause I’m caught up in a fictional universe.

Where global warming is not only nonexistent, but it’s been reversed.

 Walking in a world where, nobody passes judgement, on the complexion of your pigment. Where no one spits on your religion, or your sexual orientation, or gender transition.

Where women are considered equal to men.

To humanitarian’s discrimination is frowned upon, chiming equality for everyone.

I’m surrounded by futuristic gadgetry, in a world where world peace isn’t just a hopeful dream it’s actually achieved.

 However, this warning I will deliver. What does good for humanity and the planet will always seek to be destroyed by the far-right conservatives, and one man’s promises to make the rich richer.

But my antagonist has got a hidden agenda.

That last line might seem wrongfully placed, but read between the lines, and you’ll understand what I’ve got in mind.

Get it? Oh well onto the next line.

The far-right push for a leader who can make this world better suited for them. A plan they should’ve seriously reconsidered. Cause, their man is planning an assault on the humanitarians who made this world a safe environment.

Far right brace yourselves, cause another world war is about to begin.

This is where Jenny and the WIA step in.

Rule, in every way looks posed to win the battle, but in actuality they might lose the war.

They’ll be in for a rude awakening, when the rest of humanity gets into traction.

They’ll jump into action, fighting for everything the UN’s worked so hard to build and maintain.

For this world is their salvation, and world peace is their proudest achievement to date.

Hash tag fuck JLJ.

It’s done!


I am feeling a bit rusty as I write this post, perhaps I shouldn’t make it a habit to take such a lengthy hiatus. I hope everyone has been doing well during my absence from the blogging universe.

You’ll be happy to hear that during my hiatus, I not only had a nice break, but that I also managed to finish off that pesky deck. Thanks to my loving labors, the deck turned out beautifully.

The Old Deck

The New Deck (post contractor)

The New Deck Completed

I had intended to write a post revolving around the how to’s of building or rather completing a deck, but I feel like this would make for an awfully long post, and as I’m feeling blogging rusty. I may do something that I haven’t done since 2012, and that would be to vlog. I think that this may be a better way to go when discussing the how to’s. Plus actual visual aids can be a heck of a lot more helpful.

Thanks for stopping by, my apologies for being gone for so long.

Big yard equals BIG frustrations


When I was a kid I always wanted a house with a big yard, and as I grew up in Colorado I noticed that the yards in newer homes seemed to get smaller. This bothered me, as I watched new subdivisions go up; the houses were so grand in scale and beautiful. The yard however, was minimized to the size of an apartment house’s tiny courtyard. It was green, it was plush, but so small in comparison to this four bedroom home that it was almost comical.

When I moved out to the East Coast however, it was like stepping into an older America. Where the houses didn’t need to be so new and grand in scale. Where the yards looked like actual yards, and were touched off with the white picket fence.

Now that I have a home of my own, I was fortunate enough to find one with a yard, of course it happened to be twice as big as most of my neighbors, but that’s to be expected with multi-fam properties.

One of the biggest problems that you run into when taking care of your lawn during the summer is keeping your grass healthy, tidy, and trim. Right now my grass falls under one of these three qualities, it’s certainly healthy. This brings me to the all important topic of lawn mowers. Now, I bought one on clearance about two years back when I was about to move into the house; because I knew I’d need a decent mower, that could last a while.  This season, while trying to cut the grass for the second time of the mowing season, my mower up and died on me. Part of the reason could be that I bought the thing from Walmart where their quality ranks from adequate to atrocious. It could also be my lack of experience with lawn mower maintenance. So here’s a list of lawn mower guideline that you can follow; which has helped me tremendously.

  1. Get your mower serviced at the start of every season so it’ll run properly.
  2. Don’t use cheap gas. (It won’t hurt the mower if you do, but premium helps keep your engine clean; which is better for your mower in the long haul. )
  3. At the end of every season you can do one of two things to help your mower to stay in good condition, so it will actually start next season. Either run it till it runs completely out of gas, or if you detest that method; you can purchase a bottle of fuel stabilizer. Simply pour a couple of ounces in with your gas so that your gas will stay fresh, and when you go to start it the stabilizer will actually help clear your fuel lines so they won’t be gummed up from sitting all winter.
  4. It also wouldn’t hurt to start the mower and let it run once a month during the off season. (Think of it, like a car, to keep a sitting car fresh you’ve got to start it up every once in a while.)
  5. Make sure to read your mower’s manual to know what oil you should be using for it. (Don’t be stupid like me and buy the cheapest oil.)
  6. Buy a decent mower. (If you can afford it.) They’ll last much longer, and run better.

If you follow these tips then I guarantee that you’ll have your mower running without a hitch for years to come.