I’m not exactly sure how I feel about this song, I just finished writing it and I don’t know. Let me know me what you think, I’d love to get your opinions of it.

Your face is covered in ink, with arrows and dotted lines mapped out on your cheeks.
You’re staring into the mirror contemplating the decision that you’ve made, wanting so badly to become what you hate.
Another statistic wrapped up into a stereotype.
Another beautiful girl; who’s drawn to the knife; just wanting to hide those scars behind an artificial face.
But no matter how you cover up those scars they’re still there, still exactly where you left them, buried underneath a mask; concealing the face that was once so familiar.
Now, you of all people know that a facelift is merely a Band-Aid.

It’s just a way to attempt to heal the cuts and scrapes.
Girl I wish you’d realize that you’ve got nothing to gain but everything to lose.

I just want you to know this before the anesthesia flows through your veins…
(Chorus you’re my every definition of a beauty queen, eloquent mixed with the perfect amount of elegancy.
And baby I’ve always loved you just the way you are.
No not a thing about you needs to change, and if I were asked to complete a survey the results would conclude that I am utterly satisfied, with your appearance in every way.)
A woman like you needs no artificial makeup to enhance your facial features any further.
I really do feel that a facelift would destroy all of your god given magnificence.
Girl in my honest opinion, going under the knife should be considered as a last resort.

Your face is covered in ink, with arrows and dotted lines mapped out on your cheeks.

You’re staring into the mirror when common sense overtakes you, the needs and desires for facial enhancement have left your mind.

True beauty is natural and you couldn’t live with that mask concealing your face.

(You wanna know something baby?)

(Chorus you’re my every definition of a beauty queen, eloquent mixed with the perfect amount of elegancy.
And baby I’ve always loved you just the way you are.
No not a thing about you needs to change, and if I were asked to complete a survey the results would conclude that I am utterly satisfied, with your appearance in every way.)

You wash and dry your face, a few bits of ink are still visible but your appearance remains the same, gorgeous in every way.

A book under construction

I enjoy refreshing my memory over the “How to’s and the do not’s,” of writing; however it does at the same time ignite a spark of fear in me. That fear of screwing up crucial parts of your story, or of digging yourself into a hole which runs to the core of basic the rules of writing deep. I’m sure that all new and inexperienced writers feel this fear somewhat lurking on them, upon occasion.

This is certainly how I feel while reading through Dreamer and while thinking about Jenny Mac plot, storyline, characters, and what have you. Now before anyone gets excited, this is not me hinting that I’m working on Jenny Mac and that I’ve began writing the story, or have been jotting down notes; because I haven’t. Part of the reason being is because of what I was just talking about.

One of the biggest issues that I’ve had with Jenny Mac is no secret to those who have read my Jenny Mac stories from a long ways back; the POV, (Point Of View.) Amongst other issues with the backstory, plot, and a lack thereof excitement and suspense for the reader. Since I took a good look at what I had with Jenny Mac, which was a mess and poorly constructed, I tried to dig in a figure out what to do and where to go from there. The results were to start from scratch and to learn everything that I could possibly learn about proper fictional writing technique. Shortly there after, I decided to start writing a new story which some of you know as Dreamer; which I’m proud to say is showing loads of improvement,when comparing it to my old ways of writing and my old techniques.

Today after re-reading through a fiction writing guidebook I started thinking about the story that I decided to shelf until I’ve learned proper writing technique. Well I wouldn’t say that I’ve learned everything that a writer needs to know, but I find myself pondering the idea of, well not exactly blowing the dust off of Jenny Mac, but rather thinking of ideas. But I feel like if I were to start doing that, then my work with Dreamer might suffer; although as a writer I should not be afraid of the prospect of juggling two pieces of work. I know that it’s healthy to work on different pieces of writing and I might add, I’ve indeed done so before. However I still find that I am struggling with those same issues in Jenny Mac that described earlier in this post.

Perhaps it wouldn’t hurt to begin doing some research and drawing a plot outline web? Perhaps this would be the best thing to do; because I feel that I’m letting my writing fears rule me, and you can only run from your fears for so long before your forced to face them head on. So perhaps I should face them and learn to successfully juggle two pieces of writing.

A late blogging session

Lets see what thoughts will come to me during a late blogging session. First off I love this time of year, the weather cools down, there’s no more humidity that fries your brain, and we’ve almost reached daylight savings time; which will give us an extra hour of sleep. Who doesn’t love that. There is one issue  that I always seem to have when this season first swings into full bloom; I have a tendency once it gets dark to want to go to bed. Earlier this evening I felt so exhausted so I looked at the clock thinking that it would read 9PM, and instead it read 6:30.

I truly do love this time of year, in October we have pumpkins, scary movies, and candy. In November we stock to have a gigantic meal surrounded by family. In December we have Christmas trees, Menorahs, shopping, gifts to wraps, goodies to indulge in, time to spend with loved ones, and yet another huge meal. By New Years your running overtime at the gym and catching up on credit card bills. Okay so I rambled off there big time, but regardless of the craziness that we go through throughout this time of year I still enjoy every second; especially when walking my dog and getting to see all of the pretty colored trees. You don’t see beautiful autumn days in Colorado, that you’ll see out here on the east coast, and I love it; seeing all of these trees makes you want to jump into a big pile of leaves. Come to think of it, I don’t believe that I have ever done that before.

I can’t believe that this is what has come to mind for me during a late blogging session, but what are you gonna do? It’s just one of those random nights I guess, but I at least stuck to something relevant, and perhaps made you fan of this time of year if you weren’t really a fan before.

Well enjoy the rest of your evening all of you late night bloggers out there, and thanks for dropping by. :)


Since it’s October and since Halloween is right around the corner my family and I have been indulging in horror flicks. So far we’ve watched three different versions of Stephen King’s Carrie, Halloween, Halloween 6, I know what you did last summer, and tonight’s horror flick, Jeepers Creepers.

Almost every scary movie that we watched my sister has been in the same position that she’s usually in for every horror movie that she sees, curled up on the couch with her eyes closed and her ears covered. The poor thing couldn’t sit through a horror movie if her life depended on it. Oh and just so everyone knows she’s my older sister, not my younger sister so please don’t think I’m poking fun at her in an ill manner. When we watched Jeepers Creepers I really thought that she’d be able to sit through it, given that it’s a classic monster movie, but alas the questions began… “What’s going to happen? Is he going to pop up? Is she going to get killed? Will they survive?” All of these questions were asked with her head turned away from the screen. At the end of the movie I said “well it wasn’t that bad.” To which my sister replied, “Are you kidding it was horrifying.”

For me the one thing that calms me down and that also makes me laugh are the idiotic bits in horror movies when the characters do or say really stupid things. For instance,

“Let’s go back and check it out.”

Instead of running out the front door and screaming for help, I think that I’ll run up stairs, lock the door and hide under the bed.

These sentiments are not lost on my sister but rather intensified. “Why’d she go back into the house? Lady you’re so stupid!” “No don’t go and check it out, runaway. No don’t go back you moron!”

When it comes to horror movies I can handle a good percentage unless they’re really weird, gory, supernatural, about possession, or based on true events. Any others I can handle, until I have terrible nightmares then I want to chuck every horror movie that I own out the window. So I guess that I’m as bad as my sister but on a different level. I do however think a good scary movie is good for you every once in a while, it gets your blood flowing and your adrenaline pumping, so long as it’s not too horrifying at least.

Introducing Aunt Rebecca Katherine Reilly-Montcash

Now that I’ve gotten passed the holiday lovey-dovey section of Dreamer’s current chapter, I now have an introduction to make with a very influential person who’ll be coming into Rebecca’s life. This is also a challenge because Aunt Rebecca Katherine Reilly-Montcash fits the bill perfectly as a complex character, so I feel that I have to go about this intro very carefully. The biggest issue that I’m having a problem with, is her attitude. I feel that in a sense she should come off as a bit closed off and sort of cold, but also has this warmth within her that Rebecca will be able to pick up on.

I do feel however that when a long-lost aunt unexpectedly pops into your life, that it should be be extremely confusing and conflicting for my main character; which would compel Rebecca to instantly distrust this woman. Oh what to do, what to do?

You know I always felt that this introduction would be the easiest intro that I would make in this book but it has definitely turned out to be the most difficult; on the flip side of the coin I should’ve known that this would prove to be the most difficult introduction that I would make. Take my advice if you’re writing a book that semi autobiographical, you may want to really sit down and think about just exactly what you want to come out of this story and just how much of your own life you want to include within the book’s pages.

I have thought this over for the record, it’s just a bitch to get it down in that correct manner that I want to go about it. Your ideas are one thing, but writing them down is an entirely different experience.

The One Lovely Blog Award


I woke up this morning and found out that I have been nominated for The One Lovely Blog Award by http://sadnesstheory.wordpress.com/ an awesome blogger with a passion for music. Thanks very much for the nomination, I feel so honored. :)

I guess there’s some rules that go along with this award so let’s take a look.


1. Thank and link to the amazing person who nominated you.

2. List the rules and display the award.

3. Share seven facts about yourself.

4. Nominate 15 other amazing blogs and comment on their posts to let them know they have been nominated.

5. Proudly display the award logo on your blog and follow the blogger who nominated you.

Seven facts about myself, hmm well let me think…

1 My favorite color is blue.

2 I am a young adult writer.

3 I am also a songwriter.

4 I love music.

5 I also love reading.

6 I have a dog named Buddy, who is almost two years old.

7 I have three cats whose names are Chance, Nala, and Cream Puff.

I know that you’re supposed to do fifteen people but I can’t think of that many people at the moment so here’s a few.

My Nominees






Congrats everyone and I hope that you’ll accept. :)

The Jenny Mac Blogger Appreciation Award 2014

Since The Jenny Mac Book Blog made its WordPress debut in 2012, I have been very fortunate in meeting amazing new people with brilliant minds. These people have been an inspiration, helpful, patient, understanding, faithful readers, and above all else excellent bloggers.

Over the past few years I’ve been fortunate enough to have been nominated for several different blogging awards, and have ever since wanted to create an award of my own that represents my gratitude and appreciation towards my fellow bloggers. It is in this spirit that I would like to pass this award onto my most inspiring bloggers.

The Jenny Mac Blogger Appreciation Award 2014 will be given out to those bloggers who inspire us, keep us coming back to their blogs, challenge us to not only be better bloggers but better writers, and to those who have that magically ability to uplift our spirits.

Nomination guidelines:

Write a post telling us about the people that you have chosen to nominate.

Thank and link back to the person who has nominated you.

Include the award logo in your acceptance post.

Nominate 5 to 10 others bloggers who you see fit to be awarded and let them know about their nomination.

Display the award on your own site.

I am proud to present the following nominees and I hope that you will all enjoy this award. :)

The Nominees are…







Congratulations to all of my nominees and thank you for everything that you have done for me. You are truly inspirational people, whom I hope will always continue to write and will continue to pursue your dreams. <3