Wake up call


This morning I had a lot of laundry to do; which means trips back and forth to the laundry mat because my dryer belt is done. However I was having one of those Monday mornings where getting up and actually functioning was difficult, and I’m positive that my body was still on weekend time. Because of my lack of get up and go, I decided to wait until tomorrow to do the laundry which was good because after I decided to postpone laundry day my neighbor asked me for a favor.

This morning I spent some time with my neighbor’s 4 year-old daughter while  mama bear ran errands. She’s such a happy energetic little thing, who wore out my my little puppy. As a matter of fact I think he’s still sleeping. They were so cute when they were playing together. <3 Later on after Buddy wanted to take a break from the 4 year-old she wanted to watch TV. I’ll tell you something right now I owe my family big time for putting up with me during  my Barney phase; with every singalong I wanted to to put earplugs in my ears. I honestly think that shows like that were meant to drive the adults insane, but at least it kept the little one happy.

The good news from having that exercise this morning is that I’m fully awake and focused. Now to get some work done with Dreamer, I think I’ve got a pretty good idea where I want the story to go, as a result I think that there will be quite a bit of entertaining drama that will keep you sucked in while reading; which of course is always the goal. There’s going to be a fight, there going to be sort of a stand off between the teens and the authority figures, and there will be more subplot twists. This should be very interesting and fun to write indeed.

Everything about you


Ooh, you light up my life like the night sky.

You lift me up when I am too weak, surrounding me with loving warmth every minute.

Honey I don’t know too much about love, but I know that your love is true and I’m thankful for you.

I don’t know where you came from, sometimes I’ll swear, that you dropped down from heaven, just like an angel looking for a soul to guide.

You make me want to believe in love.

(Chorus you’re a pure heart and I feel blessed by you.

The kindest person that I could meet would not be able to hold a candle to you.

You speak right from your soul; have no fears of being hurt, even when I put you on ice you waited so patient.

Baby your world is an open book and you’re truthful to a fault, even when it’s difficult. You see no need to lie; giving me every reason to trust you completely.

I’ve fallen in love with everything about you.)

It’s true that I’ve never met someone like you. As far as people go, I’m usually exposed to the liars and cheats; that usually seek to take advantage of my generosity.

I never thought I’d meet somebody so true and I can’t help but be in awe of you.

You’re the exact opposite of every woman who has walked into my life and I still can’t believe that I wake up with lying by my side.

(Girl you’re something from out of a beautiful dream.)

Hard working, intelligent, and passionate about what you do, oh girl I love every single thing about you.

(Chorus you’re a pure heart and I feel blessed by you.

The kindest person that I could meet would not be able to hold a candle to you.

You speak right from your soul; have no fears of being hurt, even when I put you on ice you waited so patient.

Baby your world is an open book and you’re truthful to a fault, even when it’s difficult. You see no need to lie; giving me every reason to trust you completely.

I’ve fallen in love with everything about you.)

You’ve inspired me to fly, now I’m no longer afraid to soar; chasing after my dreams and I have to thank.

You’ve lit me up like the night sky, lifted me up to new heights, and I can’t believe that I’ve met someone who’s given me love and so much more.

(Chorus you’re a pure heart and I feel blessed by you.

The kindest person that I could meet would not be able to hold a candle to you.

You speak right from your soul; have no fears of being hurt, even when I put you on ice you waited so patient.

Baby your world is an open book and you’re truthful to a fault, even when it’s difficult. You see no need to lie; giving me every reason to trust you completely.

I’ve fallen in love with everything about you.)

It’s true I don’t know where you came from, but I know that you’re heaven sent; with the purest intentions that I will forever cherish.

She-devil


(Intro

I wish I knew how to let you go, I hate that you’ve got this hold on me.
I wish that I could rewind to the day we met and avoid making your acquaintance. It would have been so much easier if our paths had never crossed.
Fuck fate and screw destiny, if you and I were truly meant to be you would be standing right in front me; with arms prepared to embrace me as you wrap me up so tightly.
Girl I’m not exaggerating, not even slightly.
I always felt like we were meant to be but you decided to ditch me so crudely.
I never knew that you could be such a she-devil.)

When we first crossed paths I’ll admit you were my every definition of gorgeous.

Perfect figure, perfect curves that drove me mad, skin tight jeans and looking like you just came from a photo shoot at glamour magazine.

You were everything in a tall sexy package that would have women lined up out the door.  Girl you were so sexy I should’ve known that you’d be bad.

You could’ve seduced any other girl without batting an eyelash, but you locked sights on me, ready to swoop in and destroy me.

You were sweet, you were kind and did everything you could to hide that dark twisted side.

A single conversation was all it took for you to get under my skin and suck me in.

You gave me love that I’d never felt before, but soon enough your halo melted away and transformed into horns.

(Chorus a beautiful woman but deep within pure evil with miniature devil horns.

Eyes red hot like fireballs, damn I should’ve know that you were just another she-devil underneath it all.)

Two timing hurtful too, and as slippery as a snake, I should’ve known to never trust you. It makes want to cry whenever I think of all of those times that you lied to my face.

Sleep, sleep, sleeping away in another woman’s bed every day; while I’m away, every time I’d  call you up asking how was your day? You’d say it was okay but it would have great if you were here. All this time how could I have not noticed that you were leading me astray?

(Chorus a beautiful woman but deep within pure evil with miniature devil horns.

Eyes red hot like fireballs, damn I should’ve know that you were just another she-devil underneath it all.)

I’ll never forget that night, coming home to empty house, you just cleaned me out. A single note was all I found, with it’s over written in the title.

Gave you all of my trust, tried to warm you with my love and now I just don’t understand who could burn me like that, leaving my heart with a permanent scar in the shape of a pitchfork.

(You’re so bad.

So, bad, so bad, so bad.)

Damn,

Three years together and this is how it ends, an engagement ring that’s burning a hole in my hand. I thought you and I would be forever but instead you had other plans.

(Chorus a beautiful woman but deep within pure evil with miniature devil horns.

Eyes red hot like fireballs, damn I should’ve know that you were just another she-devil underneath it all.)

But baby just remember my name when karma comes back around. I know that you think that you’re safe but just remember good always triumphs in the end.

No, no matter how sly you are you can’t escape your fate and you’ll be burned just the same.

(Chorus a beautiful woman but deep within pure evil with miniature devil horns.

Eyes red hot like fireballs, damn I should’ve know that you were just another she-devil underneath it all.)

Every time


You ask me to tell you just how much I care for you, but the words can’t seem to reach my lips and it’s like I’m set on mute.

However I think that I’ve found a way to convey my feelings towards you.

Ever since you met me you’ve known how closed off I can be. It’s difficult to express such powerful emotions.

Girl you surround me with passion that warms me, I’ve never known that love could be so kind, and the way you hold me I can feel my every stress melting away.

(Chorus Every time I see you; you’ll make me weak in the knees.

Oh honey I just want to wrap my arms around you and hold you, till we get lost in each other.

I know that I could never find another who is so in sync; you always know everything that I’ll do. Before I met you it was hit or miss; because nobody would ever understand me in the way that you do.

Did you know that I’m mesmerized by those eyes, lost in sweet pools of chocolate every time, I want to spend the whole night looking in your eyes.)

I love your habits too, and I know that chewing gun is your weakness; I can smell the cinnamon on your breath when you’re near.

You do your laundry almost obsessively but I always found it cute.

When you think I’m not looking I’ll catch you gazing, babe you’ll never know how cute you are.

(Chorus Every time I see you; you’ll make me weak in the knees.

Oh honey I just want to wrap my arms around you and hold you, till we get lost in each other.

I know that I could never find another who is so in sync; you always know everything that I’ll do. Before I met you it was hit or miss; because nobody would ever understand me in the way that you do.

Did you know that I’m mesmerized by those eyes, lost in sweet pools of chocolate every time, I want to spend the whole night looking in your eyes.)

You’re a sweetheart with a beautiful soul to match and you’ll never realize just how amazing you truly are.

I know that if we should ever go our separate ways, I could never meet another like you. You’re one of kind, and a duplicate would just be a knockoff in my eyes.

(Chorus Every time I see you; you’ll make me weak in the knees.

Oh honey I just want to wrap my arms around you and hold you, till we get lost in each other.

I know that I could never find another who is so in sync; you always know everything that I’ll do. Before I met you it was hit or miss; because nobody would ever understand me in the way that you do.

Did you know that I’m mesmerized by those eyes, lost in sweet pools of chocolate every time, I want to spend the whole night looking in your eyes.)

So you asked me about feelings for you and I hope this song clarified what I couldn’t say to you.

Baby girl I’m in love with you.

Beautiful Flame


Here’s a story of love meant to last.

Two adolescents meet during a time of utmost uncertainty. Things can change on a daily basis and at fourteen there are no exceptions.

You’re lucky to have a friend who’ll stay with you through almost everything; to be there for the first date, the first broken heart, and to see you through the pain.

You were there, to see me through everything, a friend first only to become a lover down the line.

Strike a match, and light a candle to ignite the flame.

No I never knew that fate would have placed you right by my side.

Baby you are the one that I confide in. You’re perfect because you fit right into my life. I love that you’re never afraid to speak your mind.

You could keep me laughing all night and every time you do something silly I flashback to those long carefree nights.

Every time I look at you I’ll still get lost in thought and wonder just what I’ve done to deserve you.

You’re everything that makes my world brighter.

(Chorus This beautiful flame is enchanting and we could ask for no better.

We never worry about it dying down, or burning out because our love will keep it burning strong.

We’ve been through everything and I can’t see how this would change.

Furthermore in fifty years you could find us happily reminiscing over our love.)

Honey I love you and I take you for all of your fears. I know that we have a history and we never hit the standard definition of perfect, but it’s worth it.

Not only have we grown together, but we’ve grown stronger. We realize that love is never as the fairytales describe, there’s a whole other story to be told when that last scene fades out and the credits roll.

But you are my happy ever after.

(Chorus This beautiful flame is enchanting and we could ask for no better.

We never worry about it dying down, or burning out because our love will keep it burning strong.

We’ve been through everything and I can’t see how this would change.

Furthermore in fifty years you could find us happily reminiscing over our love.)

I’ve heard people protest and say that it never works out, you’ll find yourself alone one day. That’s when we’ll promise to never stop trying, and understand that communication is the key.

We’ll talk about problems and days, never afraid that we’ll stray.

I know that we’ll be that magical percentage to work out.

(Chorus This beautiful flame is enchanting and we could ask for no better.

We never worry about it dying down, or burning out because our love will keep it burning strong.

We’ve been through everything and I can’t see how this would change.

Furthermore in fifty years you could find us happily reminiscing over our love.)

We are the perfect happy ever after.

A stroke of inspiration


Well folks new ideas for chapter six hit me like a freight train tonight and I couldn’t be more thrilled. First off I love the way the book shaping up, and I am so proud of the fact that my writing is actually improving. I can honestly say it’s a night and day difference when compared to where I was when I was writing Jenny Mac.

I can now point out many, many of the flaws in Jenny Mac, not that I’ve looked back at the story or anything like that; it’s more like mental notes where I’ll think back and go… Oh that’s where I went wrong here and that’s where I went wrong there. It’s such a brilliant feeling knowing that your craft is improving, it’s truly a sense of empowerment that lifts you up to climb and explore new heights.

It excites me to think of the end result and what you guys will think of the story once it’s eventually out there.

Anyway as I was saying before tonight inspiration struck and I think that this chapter is shaping up to be my favorite so far; because not only does it deal with the typical teenage problems it’s intensifies them with this psychological issue that Rebecca must confront and address. It’s when that she confronts this major issue that she can fully understand her life, her domestic situation, her strive to leave this town and her pain behind her, and finally her drive to be accepted into college so that she can have a better, and not become just another statistic.

I think I may have accidentally found the missing piece of the puzzle for her story and it’s all thanks to a writing textbook. Ah the things that can inspire you, you’ve got to love it.   

Balancing


Last week I began to read through what I have so far of my Dreamer first draft. I added the characters appearances and a few other things revolving around their appearance such as height, clothing, weight and etc. I reached page 11 when new ideas for the current chapter I was thinking about popped into my head, abandoning the read through that I’d begun; to commence work on the newest chapter.

Now that I’ve fixed and completed chapter five, I’d like to pickup where I last left off reading; hopefully I can get through a decent percentage before new ideas for chapter six enter my mind. I once came across this term while reading a writing textbook that described the type of writer a person is. I am positively s seat of the pants writer. The type of writer to type out new ideas and edit later.

I wish I were more patient when it comes to writing out story worlds, character bios, geographical settings, and plot ideas for the story but sadly I’m not. Although in my opinion when you’re writing a single book, I don’t feel that all of those things are needed. If you were writing a series then I can surely understand it and why you would need it; because that info you jot down is basically like your bible to look back at through out the series.

I will say that I will definitely need to use this method once I return to Jenny Mac; however until that time I shall continue with my seat of the pants method/writing style.